Friends Of Suicide

adult themes

I wish I’d seen it sooner-
I’m meant to be a councillor,
But it’s not so easy when it’s your own daughter.
Her friends saw it first,
I know they made every effort to make me believe,
But how can you?!
It tears the family apart,
It’s tearing me apart too
She doesn’t want to help herself
So what can I do?
Except keep her in a locked room
Or watch as she breaks herself into little pieces.
It feels like I’ve failed her.
I wish she’d understand that it will get better

I can’t reach her anymore,
My best friend,
Whose thoughts have turned to death.
We used to laugh until we cried,
Now she just cries and stares.
She says she cannot go on living this life
Why can’t she see things won’t always be this way?
She harms herself,
I see the scars and want to cry
I wish she would see it isn’t just her that she’s hurting.
I don’t want to have to go to her funeral.
I wish she’d understand that the pain isn’t forever

My sister doesn’t want to play anymore.
Daddy says she’s not well
When I see her, her eyes always look sore
Mummy yells,
Daddies worried
And I don’t understand.
I wish she would smile and giggle like she used to
And play forts and bounce with me again.
I want her to be ok.
I asked Daddy how I could make her happy again
He said; just tell her you love her.

She says it’s because of me
But I promise I didn’t know.
I just told her the truth.
I’m only seventeen; I can’t deal with this,
I shouldn’t have to.
She should have known it was going to end,
Though, I wish I hadn’t told her it was forever.
She won’t leave me alone,
I’ve stopped replying to her,
I don’t know what else to do!
Maybe she will now be able to forget me and move on.
Of course I care! I loved her once,
I didn’t want to hurt her.
I’m sorry OK?
I wish she’d stay.