That night, Paul begged for me to tell him everything. Everything I wrote here.
Finally, he said something like this:
"you are a pretty, intelligent, wonderful, absolutely insane girl whose friends love hanging out with her
you need to understand that whenever I say ANYTHING mean, I will NEVER mean it. youve really got to understand that
and if you ever get this again, this pain, tell me. I will help you. we can fight this."
at that moment I realized how much I love my best friend.
I'm almost getting emotional as I type this.
For every person that has done what I've done, and is still doing it,
stop.
Now.
It does nobody any good.
It does not make you feel better. It does not bring permanent relief.
Get help with your pain. Get help with what you're going through.
More than anything, tell SOMEONE in your family. Don't hide. Don't lie.
Just stop doing this. Stop.
You will feel so much better if you do.
Take it from someone who knows.
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