God, I hate myself. I look in the mirror, and stare at myself in disgust. I look at the mascara under my eyes and down my cheeks. I look at my body and think how it will never be good enough. I stand there and look at my dark blue eyes, and the more I look, the more I want to cry, the more pain I feel. I don't want to keep hating myself like this. I walked back to my dark room and laid on my bed and tried to sleep the pain away.
How did you like this story?
Your feedback helps eliseeeegurl understand what's working
@eliseeeegurl
I'm in love, it's true. But things get tough. This is my back up journal. The things I write on paper, shall also go on here. Enjoy c:
Similar Stories
Empty
My whole being is empty, Nothing within me exists, I miss the life I once had, The life where everything fit.
238 words
Cold.
My sleeves are stained red,. And I'm drowning in my head,. The river's burst and flowing,. What was hidden is now showing,. There are pathways on my skin,. Leading down to what's within,.
70 words
She
She cuts a little deeper, she really loves the sting. Watches as the blood flows, dark red soon fills her sink. Her only wish is for those she loves to forgive her for her sins.
141 words
It Starts
It begins with the anger, It turns into sadness, It comes out in tears, Then swells up in redness. The two marks, So simple so sly, There red and there sitting, Right there on your thigh.
124 words
How Are You Feeling?
How are you feeling. A very simple question, To which many can't answer, With an honest confession. You truly wish to know, How I feel inside, To know my thoughts, And the feelings I hide.
300 words
I'm Worthless
I need to stop .
105 words
This Poem Has No Title
This may be a little dark. So read only if you'd like.
272 words
Save Me
Nobody can save me, you can all try. But you won't make me better by filling me up with lies. I'm lost, but I can't be found. It's too late, all hope has been lost. I'm useless and broken anyway.
103 words
Comments & Feedback (38)
And Elise, never think anything like this about yourself. I've seen pictures of you and you're beautiful. From your writing I can tell you' have a good heart and are always willing to stick up for someone. Now stick up for yourself
We had a gr8 day 2day! Just think abouts that and crazy shorts!!! :) u r beautiful girly! ;) beleive dat cuz im brutely honest!
@eliseeeegurl , I know from reading your opusses that you are quite beautiful. I would hope one day that you'd feel confident not to wear makeup though.
(this may sound cheesy) But we are ALL beautiful. I believe that what reflects in your writing shows a true and wonderful person. So enjoy everyday and think of what great things you possess mentally and physically.
@Icefrost1 @Takuya272727 @taffy01 @Kat12 Thank you to all of you. Reading these make me want to cry, but the good kind of cry. Tears of joy :') you are all really nice people and I'll never forget the wonderful people on here (and in my life @taffy01) :) <333
@eliseeeegurl Thank you from what I see is a great person that must have boatloads of loving and caring people in her life
@eliseeeegurl I feel the same way sometimes. then I look at the Virgin Mary- obviously beautiful in her heart. that's all that matters. In a time before our "perfections", everyone was beautiful. we are all still beautiful- it's society thats ugly.
To all the girls that think your ugly just because you're not a size zero, you're beautiful; it's society that's ugly." -Marilyn Monroe
If u Be beautiful heart, its will be after got big profit, beautiful face n body it's only for eyes, we need love n peace care, so it's all from heart
Ur writing is amazing.. So u MUST be!! Even if U dont think ur beautiful I'm sure other people do!! :D
@eliseeeegurl when you feel sad, try to imagine a T Rex picking up a football. But seriously, don't think like this!
People say nobodys perfect, bit who are they to talk? Try focusing on the things that you like about yourself and emphasize them !
I loved this and I totally get how you feel. I never think I'm good enough or deserve any happiness or love. So I understand. But you know you're too young to let the bastards get you down girl. You're talented and smart and beautiful. Keep going.
It doesnt matter what you look like on the outside just think its what's in the inside that counts. I feel sorry for you just remember everyone is beautiful so dont worry
Just for the record, you - and everybody else that posted on here - are beautiful. You are all surrounded by a community of people who all think that you are each beautiful - that many hundreds of people can't be wrong, so take their comments with sincerity. I, for one, mean mine.
Stop being pessimistic. For a start, you addressed God as the first word. Saying this is the same as saying you hate his work. Secondly, he already knows... I won't bore you, but I would take you more seriously if you didn't talk to yourself, it's the first sign of madness.
Want to join the conversation? Sign in to leave a comment.