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For Those of Us Who Have Been Here

Too afraid to gain a pound
So you just walk away
You live your life alone
With no one around

It's the one thing you can control
Was it the stress?
Or maybe the pressure
It made you go so far as to almost lose your soul

What you see in the mirror isn't true
In a strive for perfection
You cant see it
But they all do

You don't realize until its too late
It's just one of those things
That eventually controls you
Fills you with so much self hate

Those on the outside
Blame it all on you
Say it's your fault
They don't know all those times you cried

The constant fear of that number
What if its too high?
You can't see how it will end
In your fight against hunger

You lose so much more than just weight
Left feeling empty inside
But you haven't lost your strength
Even when it controls every choice you make

missingyou

@missingyou

"Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple" ~Dr. Seuss

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Comments & Feedback (12)

Been there :/ Eating disorders are tough huh :(

@missingyou โฌ†โฌ†

Yeah they are:/

@missingyou Have you told anyone about it? That helped me a little..

@ThatGirl123 oh yeah my family has helped me a lot and my best friend convinced me to get help

@missingyou That's good to have a supportive family and friends. I would love that. With me, it's way different, all the kids at school know about my problem but they just pretend I don't exist or talk about me behind my back all the time

@missingyou This one girl used to be my best friend but now she has all these new friends and they all talk about me and laugh at me at school ๐Ÿ˜ž

It's hard..really hard..but your not alone if you ever want to talk I'm a good listener

@missingyou That's good to know, we'll have to talk more sometime. :)

Ok:)