I stand here
Just staring at empty space
I daren't feel
My fears I cannot face
They twist my gut
My chest feels tight
In this tunnel of mine
There is no saving light
I walk with a dark cloud
Shoulders heavy with weight
Don't judge me
My fears penetrate
Inner turmoils
Eat away through all of me
They take slow painful bites
No one can hear or see
I want to just lay down
Close my eyes for a while
A little respite
In my dream I dare to smile
©Kim Brown 4th January 2013
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Writing has been my friend since a teenager...I laugh, cry, think, pretend, smile as I do it. I feel that I communicate better through my writing as in person I can appear a tad scatty.
Truth develops sadness. Eyes develop tears. Mind develops madness. Alone i fight my fears. Not a soul left to talk to. Not a soul left to care. Not a soul left, where are you.
Surrounded by people, I give a smile, Blend into the old routine. Everyday, Every hour, Every minute another lie. Calm and collected, Funny and polite, Everything one should be.
Not feeling the pain anymore. Staring all day and night at the floor. Not wanting to cry anymore. My tears are dry as I told you before. Not wanting to talk anymore.
#acorn. Not feeling the pain anymore. Staring all day and night at the floor. Not wanting to cry anymore. My tears are dry as I told you before. Not wanting to talk anymore.
You try and make me cry. But what if my eyes are dry. You try and make me feel low. But what if i’m so low. You can’t bring me down anymore. You try and point out all my flaws.
Feeling this pain I collapse into bed Not in my body In my heart and my head All I see is darkness Quickly closing in I can't escape it's evil grasp I fight but never win The feeling overwhelms...
Swamped, suffocating, Pressure to smile. Yet the plastered grin mask goes unrecognised. Angered screams of help muffled by blankets of stronger louder voices, Defacing my screams into white noice.
Tramadol hit, Opium high, Hiding under My bed from The storm inside, Can you feel Feel Feel it. The friction of Air against skin, The friction of Nothing on nothing, Can you hear Hear Hear it.
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