care

sleep
I want to sleep
but I don't
I love how my mind is when it's this late
it's open
it's honest
words can flow
I need to brush my teeth
I need to wash my face
I need to
who decided we do this
why is bad breath deemed bad
why am I deemed bad
why do I want them back
why do I want her
why why why
why doesn't he want me
why doesn't she
why don't I
where's my toothbrush
where's my razor
I cut for the rush
not to punish myself
fuck punishment
I have no regrets
if I did it,
I meant to
I meant to hurt you
I meant to cheat on you
I meant to get caught
I meant to get high
I meant for you to see me
I meant to get drunk
drunk enough for it to become an excuse
I was drunk enough to do what I physically wanted without being judged
why care if I'm judged
never stopped me before
I have a toothbrush that sings to me
bad romance by lady gaga
she's so cool
she may try a little too hard at times
who cares
not her
that's not true
she cares
she tries not to care
but she cares
this we share
care
care
care
why can't we be effortlessly cool
I care what you think
why
why care
I don't know