Swingy

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Up so high
I'll never fall
Just when I think I'm more than fine
I hit another wall
Send me flying
On top of the world
Laughing to crying
Plunged down the rabbit hole
Maybe it's just insanity
Call it BPD
or MPD
or any of your clever doctor-y things
Give me magic pills to keep me calm
Trapped in the in-between
Toss a wrench in my chaos
Make me a well oiled machine
Because I fly on my buzz
And crash into tears
Plummet to the ground
Forced to face my dark fears
There is no happy medium
Only these highs and lows
There's never peace in this swingy charade
I'm just crazy, I suppose

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Sorry, this one isn't polished. For the record, BPD refers to bipolar disorder and MPD refers to multiple personality disorder. Just in a moody sort of mood, if you know what I mean. Feeling, well, swingy. Thanks for reading.

#emotional-struggle #general #mental-health #nightdwellers #psychological-exploration

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Comments & Feedback (5)

Jan 23, 2013 at 4:14 AM

It's great👏😊I think we all get like that sometimes....

Jan 23, 2013 at 4:18 AM

so true..

Jan 23, 2013 at 4:45 AM

@ashhkat @spikekutter thank you both so much💗💗

Jan 23, 2013 at 6:24 AM

I feel you, my mother is Bi Polar as well,.. Great writing, really great 💙💜💚❤💛

Jan 24, 2013 at 6:42 AM

@insomnium thank you very much😊 I'm glad you liked it💗💋

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