Wanting To Die

originalkitten • 19 followers

Crying alone
Wanting to die
People don't care
Don't even ask why
Fed up of the fight
Lost all of my will
To get up over and over
It's just a steep hill

I've tried so many times
To fight this dark cloud
I've asked for help to get me through this
Finally shouted out loud

We have our own problems
Go away drama queen
We say that we care for you as long as
you are not heard and not seen.

Don't want to live, too scared to die
Can't take the last step
I wish it was all over so I could embrace death

I feel so selfish and cold hearted you see
My aunt just died and horrible it makes me
But it's not my fault
I am stressed to a tee
I don't know how to fix it
So I called my family

I don't want to hurt anyone
I just want to again be Lou
Doing stupid silly funny things
And Laughing until I turn blue

I ask you not to judge me
At this time of distress
It's not the real me here
I have a mental illness
I'm suicidally depressed

I want to get better
I want to be free
Of this horrid overwhelming urge to die
So please please help me!!!

©originalkitten

#depression #emotional-poetry #general #mental-health #personal-struggle #suicide-awareness

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Comments & Feedback (6)

leelee101

Feb 9, 2013 at 7:45 AM

The like is for the write hun. 😢 Sad to read a post like this, sounds true and honest to me and let me say I've never spoken to anyone in that situation before so forgive me if anything I say comes over as patronising or just plain shit. If there really is no-one for you, then there will surely be someone who can help you here. We're here for you, as much as we can be. ❤❤❤

originalkitten

Feb 9, 2013 at 3:40 PM

@leelee101 thank you it means a lot

leelee101

Feb 9, 2013 at 5:36 PM

@originalkitten hey any time. I may not be able to be hear all the time but I promise to always get back to you if you need to talk hun. 👍❤❤❤

pennygirl21

Feb 10, 2013 at 4:43 PM

@originalkitten people don't realize that you have no control over clinically depression. It's great that you are fighting and trying to get help. You are strong because you are taking the harder route. Remember that. You are strong.

originalkitten

Feb 14, 2013 at 9:48 AM

@pennygirl21 thank you so much. I'm doing much better. Seems it was the steroids I was on for acute bronchitis exacerbated the situation. I'm on reg steroids anyway and the dose went from 5mg to 35mg a day and my mum used to go psychotic with anything over 20mg. I do have suicidal tendencies but only under extreme stress like mum dying etc so I think this was a little bit of everything but the steroids was the icing on the cake so to speak. Thank you for caring enough to comment your kind words. Means so much. X

pennygirl21

Feb 14, 2013 at 11:56 AM

❤💋