I say what's on my mind
Which is not always very kind
I try to pause and think for long
But it shows and then I am asked what's wrong
I never mean to hurt anyone
And usually after am done speaking I feel like I want to run
I just can't seem to decorate the truth
It seems I am missing a fuse
At least when I see my words caused some pain
I shut up and apologize
But then I must be insane
Because I still never shut up in time even when it rains
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A 32 mother of 2 .
Playing hero, effortlessly But I'm trying to hide The peacemaker, lovely But stubborn and selfish inside I'm innocent, guilty as charged.
I really cannot help myself, I am as meek as a mouse, When some stranger makes eye contact, My mouth just clamps itself shut.
I have a habit. A very bad habit (At least for me) And no one knows about it. Don't get me wrong though, I'm no rebel, This habit is not the typical type like you might be thinking about.
Honestly, I'm my own worst enemy. I say and do Stupid things I know I'm not suppose to. Sometimes I feel like the madness is taking over my brain. The truth is I drive myself insane.
The writing's been on the wall since the day that I was born. I tried to choose a path but both my head and heart are torn. I try to clean the wreckage of the mess that I have made.
That moment When in a group, You go to speak next. But someone unknowing Has already taken Half of your words. It's half life.
If I am me They will see That I'm as plain as plain can be It just seems That within my reality My timings a tragedy Rather quite magically My Time slowly ceases My lonely mind releases...
I sit here alone with that glisten to my eyes. All becomes hazy as I think through my life. Have I ever done anything I wanted. The answer I don't know cause I still hold me back.
You have a good heart. That's most important. Those that deserve you in their life will forgive you!π
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