Why don't I dream anymore?
Why of nightmares I have more?
I want my purple butterflies once more
I want my garden to dance in like before
Unlock the door and give me back my dreams
I want to know how to silence my screams
What are dreams made of?
Lost love, innocence, faith and trust. Was that the stuff?
Sleepless nights scared of another nightmare
Trying to find what I need to repair
Give me back my dreams like before
Take me back to my garden to touch my stream once more
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A 32 mother of 2 .
The lack of sleep is puzzling me, The bags under my eyes are bursting at the seams. Night and day is slowly becoming the same thing, Slowly but surely my mind and body is changing.
Where did I go. Where have I been. I'm really not sure. The things that I've seen. My minds all a flutter. My life's in a rut. I really am wishing. My door would stay shut. But something is in here.
I see you.
I am not the same as you. Your like everyone else a program. You don't feel the emotions I feel. You can't you don't understand them. You've never experienced been depressed.
New. Newer. Less. Fewer. I'll get slimmer. Skip dinner. Be the clear winner. Thin. Thinnest. Thinner. Thinner. Always thinner. Never enough. Always too much stuff. Too many voices. Too few choices.
Padded room,. Locked door,. Safe from harm,. Yet still. Insecure,. Drugs don't. Work,. Mind races,. She's walked. The room,. A million paces,. Not insane,. Just mixed. Messages,. Tap tap tap,.
There's a bloody flame Licking in my eyes, And a sick knot Shredding my stomach. I think the sky isn't my answer. I failed that aspect again, And to reach for it now Is admitting defeat to myself.
My mind says this. But my body does that. Nothing seems to work. When my other half attacks. He does these things. Without my consent. Words spilling out. That I never really meant.
@RichWithey thank you for rp Rich. With what's going on around me now in the country cant be in a better😥
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