Just Smile

*part fiction, part exaggeration.....maybe Lmfao :-)

What's the matter with you?
You act like you've been hit by a sea of shaving foam
Stinging red eyes from tears alone
Reaching out for a hand to guide you into the unknown
Slipping up and going down a route I've outgrown

What really bothers you?
Resentment comes from not being in control
You seem to find it impossible to just let go
Of jealousy and hate for the things you think you know
I guess depression really takes its toll

If I'm honest I'd say its all just fear
You're afraid to live a happy life
Due to past experiences of a childhood of strife
Yet the boundaries and masks you put up only hurt you
On the surface I guess it's quite an act but its all untrue

In a self preservation act that's rough.
You distance yourself from those you love.
Communication becomes mundane about petty mediocre stuff.
And guilt and blame are thrown around until one of us has had enough.

I was reminiscing with old photographs and a strong coffee.
It was a long night and something bothered me.
It was the pic of us together in our infancy.
Me on the cusp of my prime and you on the brim of jealousy.
And I looked long and hard into our memories.
If only you would just allow me to help and set you free
In trust with love and all possibilities of how we could and should be

But still I return home to a frown and unpleasant tonal sounds.
Make my coffee and listen half bored to what your day has brought and what you've found
I'm multi tasking words and situations as I sit my arse on the sofa and rest my feet up off the ground
I know one thing it's gonna be a long old night with Neurofen, coffee and fags to ease my head from spinning around

If it falls off will you even pretend to notice?
Possibly if I time it with when "your soaps" have finished
You can kick it around some more and kick me in the orifice
'Cos it's ok hun I have my iPhone glued to my hand and FaceTime as a witness.......

......smile.....say cheese
Life ain't so bad!
Just smile...be glad