Monophobia

Panic attack because your safety has gone.
Drug yourself up just for protection.
Every minute seems like torture sitting with the stranger that is yourself.
Fuck.
Get back, quick, before I do something to this strange person!
Tick, tock, tick, tock.
Go away or get inside,
Just do whatever so I don't have to feel like a second presence in the room.
Alone, alone.
Alone.
Just me.
What to do with me?
I work much better when I have others to focus on.
Now I feel lost, and frightened.
Frightened of myself.
I know this is not normal. I know not many other people hate being alone as much as I do.
If only I could find peace; a mutual agreement; an understanding within myself...
Then, then I'd be better.
I hate this. I love everyone and I see reason to love me but I hate THIS.
This feeling.
I am not a stranger, I know myself more than anyone else does!
So why?
Why...