My Crying Pain

Deep packed inside me,
Like a wall of dull ache,
Or the sinking in of teeth,
Something I can't take,
It's pulling out something,
I have never seen before,
The continuous sting,
I am with at brutal war,
I feel like tearing out,
Everything I have inside,
But I do have a doubt,
The hole won't be too wide,
The screaming at night,
My crying frustration,
Nothing is ever right,
And I can't call vacation,
I hate myself, I hate me,
I can't take the pain,
The pain of what I may be.