Sometimes It Feels Safer To Never Feel At All

Im not proud my foul feelings were reflected

Obviously they stem from feelings of being neglected

My hurtful words were callas a chalice of unprotected malice

A level of maturity should of been injected my mind should of been corrected

The reminder of pain was never selected

I felt dejected

I spout hurtful words full of infected disconnected truth

I related the feelings of pain with you

The feeling of happiness was appealing and so new

The vision of past decisions made my actions uncouth

I indulged in the cycle of hurting you

My mind is abused
My passion in a noose

I try so hard
But then I lose

Focus
It's simply atrocious

We are supposed to know this
Families are for life
I wish I could just perform some hocus pocus

Next to that I'll have to resort to using Opuss

My thoughts were not in focus
Paranoia sets in whenever my life seems hopeless

In the same vein I'm ashamed to have to notice

Under attack I appear to lose all motives

I want to love you more but every time we get closer

Another tainted interaction pulls our heart and minds out of focus

Daniel Hing 30.01.13