A mess
A ball of stress
I must confess...
I lie
To myself
To others
(I sit and cry)
This smile
This laugh
Nervous
By a mile
But on I must
On with the show
"It's all fine, you know?"
Then,
Turn
To Dust
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You see me smiling. Day in day out. A mask I wear. To keep you all out. Picture perfect. Practiced it for hours. In front of the mirror. So no one suspects a thing.
trapped in a cage. a cage you walked into. and calmly locked. locked yourself in. locked the world out. thought you locked the evil out. but the evils inside. inside the cage. inside you.
My tears roll as rough as the ocean waves down my face. It's only so much I can take. The emptiness and loneliness hurts, and the people laughing at you. The voices inside my head.
She's lonely Tries to explain her pain to her so-called friends but they don't seem to care and ignore her silent cries. She brushes it off, she's use to it.
Depression known but never shown, Concealed from the face of truth, Cloaked in lies and severed ties, Obscured by the guise of youth.
I wonder if they know that the motivation to do anything comes from the drive of not wanting THIS THING to consume me. I wonder if they can hear my heart pounding with every lie as I claim to be okay.
Inky mess,. Created by tears,. Created by stress,. Written fears,. The paper was white,. Now smudged black,. Teeming with fright,. The ink attack,. Blurs of words,. On the page,. Two thirds,.
Derailing dillusions, disaster denied. Portraying illusion through half opened eyes. Conclusions resulting in worry's demise. Reality retrieved from the depths of my mind.
@nikimariee123 Of sorts, I guess... When all else makes me feel like screaming, or shutting down, I try to smile, laugh and carry on...
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