Push, pull
Need, don't want
You like this smile?
But the tears, they haunt...
It's dark in here,
But don't turn on the light,
I need to rest,
Let it's grip become my plight.
There is no other way,
It cannot be 'Happy Ever After'
I forgot, long ago,
About laughter...
So leave me here,
Don't look back.
'Cause this disorder I am,
It's all gone to back to black.
*Inspired by @smellyfingers 'Just Smile'
Depression can be an evil, life-hijacking disease... :(
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I give it all away. Trade my hate for more pain. Watch my happiness drain. As my mind goes insane. Nothing else will remain. Stood alone in the rain. Bad thoughts stuck in my brain.
Like crystals they fell from her face. They were the tears no one saw. Some people knew she wasn't alright. But they didn't know how to help.
The rain, the storms, the showers... They last for hours and hours I lay in the dark In fear of my thoughts You see it's from them that I cower The rain, the storm, the showers...
I tried my best, Gave it all I got, But what did I get. A miss. A pointless shot. Days I worked, Weeks I tried, Months i studied, Years I mined...
There are days I long to feel, Death's cold fingers around my neck. There are mornings I wake up to, and I take my pulse to check. There are evenings where I lie down, and wish I'd never rise.
It seems like I am never going to be okay. I have finally come to the terms that it is from the path I have gone astray.
Living became a struggle. Breathing hurt. What if I'm too messed up to remember how to breathe. What if no amount of medicines, therapists, hope can save me.
I want to write, but words are so far away. While my thoughts are overflowing, taking control of me. You don't know my happiness because its not even there. I'm alone, no one seems to care.
Excellent point but you still managed to keep it on a personal levelπ Great writeππππ
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