Run

It's my own fault, I'm too weak to leave.
No fucking self confidence, just no self belief.

I'm insulted here every day, after almost eight years, why do I still stay?
No mercy, no trust and no love, at least not in the way that were capable of.

You don't even like what I write, if opposites attract, shouldn't everything be right?

In a row you said I was a bore. Maybe that's why there's no love anymore?
I sweat at night, and you snore.
Our iPhones replacing past passion, and more.

And this house just isn't a home, your name on the rent book, the only one shown.
Yet it's my name that pays all the rent, funny how happiness goes, money's spent.

So what? A fortnight now at my throat? You can "whatever" you like, yeah just sit there and gloat.

You know that you hold all my cards, so from the front door, I never go far.
Why is it I feel so alone? Not while your out, but when you come home!

I can never do anything right.
With a look on your face, like your ready to fight.
Oh shit! I've not wiped the sink! I can see it angers you, I can feel what you think!

Why do you counter Everything I say?
Never a nice word, unless wanting your way.
So I've given up talking about, the hundreds of things, that may stress you out.

My whole life is tied up in you, connected is some way in all that we do.
The kids and the animals too, it's me who's the looser when this masquerades through.

I guess that I should be glad, glad you put up with me, someone who's mad.
All the terrible things that I do, all the pain and the anguish I put you through.

Of course co's I'm such a prick, one of the many labels that stick.
Perhaps its just a pet name? Like wanker, and arsehole, and dick head and Blame!

Of course, how very silly of me, it must all be down to my B.P.D! It's me that's always angry and stomping about, it's me slamming doors with a scream and a shout.
It's me obviously who sounds just like you, and it's me doing all the things I'm watching you do.

And it's me who's unhappy, that you treat Me this way.
If I could drive it would be me running away.