Caged Up Tight

What will you think you'll find?
In my mind full of black, a swirling abyss?
What will you find when I don't even know my own mind?
Can't unravel it's secrets,
Everything hidden away so tight,
My looming insanity is something only I can fight,
How do you think you can you make it all aright?
Alone, yes I am, no family, so nowhere to hide,
Words stay in my memory forever, but are said and gone in an instant,
So it is only in my mind I can confide,
Love me? Please you have no idea what goes on inside,
Are you sure you want to come along for the ride?
Tears, joy, laughter?
The rollacoaster of my life? The dark lows and rare highs,
The constant fighting, can you hear my exuberant sighs,
Let it all go? I need the ropes I like that it ties,
It holds me together even though I know it's all just lies,
Tormented? Yes but there the only ones not to leave,
Always there might leave me in fear,
But at least their there can't you see her?
Black eyes shedding one bloodstained tear?
If you knew my mind you wouldn't stay and be here,
Wouldn't caress and hold me ever so near,
You find the things I can't? Then you should be scared and confused,
I cannot lose all my control,
No redemption for me I have no soul,
Do you really feel you can fill this hole?
Yes I want to give it all maybe a little bit of love,
Maybe a mention, some wanted attention? Something more a realisation, a tender touch sensual sensations,
Then I would have to unlock my fragile mind?
Give myself too you completely with trust,
Allow myself to open, to tell all I must,
But what use is that when it's not love just lust?
To bare all and bore you with my words, something you really don't care to understand,
Downfall and downward,
Misery and despair,
Gloom and doom,
Locked in love?
Sounds like locked in a cage.

Hehe random thanks @smellyfingers used locked inside as inspiration thanks mwah x