An unforgiving heart,
Paired with broken eyes,
Is only the start
Of emotional demise.
Sneaking brownies in the dark,
Silly me.
Won't cure an aching heart.
I just want to be left be.
It's normal to be hurt,
In an internal hell,
Like you're just a turtle,
Living in a shell.
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I'm looking down, realising. I've reopened wounds from before. Not just from the past week or so. But from all those years ago. That time when I thought I knew how it felt. But now I really know.
I feel like screaming right now. If I don't defend myself then I'll end up defenseless. If I don't scream over the noise and state my cause, then I might as well become mute.
Just wanna. Break free. Return to. The old me. Just wanna. Go away. Where I may hide. My tear-soaked face. Just wanna. Disappear. Where none shall know. I'm near. Closing in. On the edge.
Don't worry, I'll try to keep on smiling. As much as life may hurt me, I'll carry on trying. I hCan you save me. Can you save me from the nothing I've become, come and find me, I need you here.
Always an outsider, Always apart. Afraid of over-committing, Of breaking my heart. Forever kept alone, Away from a crowd. Always the quiet one, Never thought to be loud.
This isn't me. I was Mr positivity. I used to find the silver linings, Now I let shit get to me. This isn't me. I'm just not the same. Something inside has broken free, And left my brain in pain.
You know what is time consuming. I questioned myself. Having all this feelings and sometimes i just think i will burst out. This rotten feelings poisoning me from the inside and i just cant handle...
Heart and mind are never in sync. Try as I might but there seems to be no link. Mind says go and heart says stop. And I am just stuck and can't reach the top. Heart and mind both cause me pain.
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