This isn't me.
I was Mr positivity.
I used to find the silver linings,
Now I let shit get to me.
This isn't me.
I'm just not the same.
Something inside has broken free,
And left my brain in pain.
This isn't me.
I never used to give a shit,
Now I'm caring way too much,
This shoe, just doesn't fit.
This isn't me.
Where did I lose myself?
This ain't how I'm supposed to be.
How did these cards get dealt?
Stablish™
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Twenty five year old male from Sudbury, Suffolk, England. I write poetry, quotes, songs and the rare story. Thanks to all who follow, like or re-post xxx
I've often thought of what I'd give To change the way I feel They say they'd give an arm or leg But clichés just aren't real.
Feelings so strange End up deranged Don't let it get to you Unless you want it to Patronising isn't it. Feeding into it Eating up all of it Deary me Upset now Pretending. Really how.
I hate how you imply that I should be more like you I hate how I'll never be that I hate how you don't talk to me, but say I'm the one that doesn't talk I hate how I know I won't ever start the...
What have you become.
Names are strange Letters you arrange Meanings you rearrange I find them strange What's the point in a nickname. Does my real name put you to shame. Should I be ashamed.
The time is right. The time is now. The time my life went downhill. A piece of peace. A slither of doubt. My mind is lost. A voice unable to shout. The pain is painless. My name is nameless.
I'm looking down, realising. I've reopened wounds from before. Not just from the past week or so. But from all those years ago. That time when I thought I knew how it felt. But now I really know.
What do you do when your best isn't enough. When you try so hard and it's just too tough. Do you just stop living. Do you lay down and die. Do you make an extra effort, Or do you just start to cry.
From the Stablish Depression Files. I'm feeling alot more up beat today, I'm just posting ones written when I was feeling crap👍👍
@Stablish nice man! It's freakishly similar to one I started writing a while back!! Mad Brain twins lol 👍😜
Nothing in the world used to bother me I would live out my years in pure positivity Then all of a sudden Everything became misty I dropped the ball And let life get to me What did that get me...that's all I ever got to!
Hugs! I like this, I think we can all relate to when we're suddenly overwhelmed and losing sight of ourselves
@glen I'll keep quiet about it mate, I've already nearly had a fight over it at work 😓 Liverpool we're just as shocking though😱
@leelee101 he's slowly but surely coming round, a few more days and poems and the transformation should hopefully be complete😉🍻🍻
@HingAling24 That's what they say😜 it is freakishly similar indeed, my mind infiltration technics must be working I guess😂😂
@chickgamer Yeah, I suppose I must happen to us all at somepoint, luckily I'm starting to feel a bit more like my old self. -Hugs-
@sjw Thanks for that, I've got quite a few half finished, dark and soppy ones. I went writing crazy 😓 😘
@Stablish funny you should say that! When I joined Opuss I didn't see you on here but then you appeared and I've always thought our writing styles were very similar more than any other Opussian 👍😜😝
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