Escaping Myself

Living in hell,
Down into dark,
I fell,
Aimless wanderer,
Lost, escaping myself,
My minds my prison cell,
From what I can tell,
I threw away the key
And blinded myself
from the sun,
There's nothing left of me,
I'm done,
And I still run & run,
So much to learn
But I keep making
wrong turns,
My insides burn
Finding something
else to ruin,
Creeping into the back
of my mind,
Scratching at the back
of blind eyes,
Self abused,
wasted & used,
Abandoned by all else,
Escaping myself,
Battered & bruised,
I'll keep pushing through.