Does it sadden you to know that you are nothing more than layers of flesh hiding bone? That when the sun goes down you'll be nothing but alone? It does for me. I hate that crushing feeling inside my chest. It bends and breaks. Anna just give it a rest. No matter how hard you cry. How much you think about how you want to die. The pain will be there screaming in your fucking ear. I don't think you're ready to hear what I hear.
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Comments & Feedback (22)
That's a powerful poem - do you actually feel as though you're nothing more than skin hiding bone? And that when the sun goes down, you're alone? Or were they deep expressions from your mind?
@fadingfatality :( it saddens me to know that's how you feel. I know that you more than likely have your reasons to feel that way but you don't deserve to, you deserve to always be happy. If you ever want to talk, vent, just want someone to listen or something, please dot hesitate to message me. You're not alone
Then you feel some very powerful emotions. I'm sure you're not completely alone though, I'm sure there are many who would be with you in spirit if they could, but you know you better than I do
@fadingfatality find the light honey. It's there waiting. Do not give up/in. Go into an old post if you want a unbiased honest chat. There are people who care, honestly. Don't get locked inside yourself. Make sense? X
@simplystylish sorry slippery fingers. Last xmas I had all My Loves ones around Me. They care and love Me. I truly love them, still I tired to slit My wrists, scars not fading. In the best moments I fall Down and wish for death. Belive Me i do understand talk to Me if U like
@smellyfingers I'm about to graduate. Everyone is going away for college except me. I only hove two people I call friends and they are both gonna be gone for good. It just hurts so fucking bad. People eventually leave me in one way or another. I blame myself maybe it is cause I'm so sad all the time. People don't think I do but I try so hard to be happy. But at the end of the day I'm all alone with my thoughts and they always win.
@fadingfatality believe me I know what your saying. We constantly moved house (left friends behind all my life) in the end (as a kid) I thought why bother making new friends I'm only going to move again. I have always been a loner......nothing wrong with that. I like being alone.....difference is, I'm not lonely. How can I be? I fill my brain with information and ponder, it's what makes me who I am today. Just be yourself, don't try to be anything your not. Keep writing (it's truly great therapy, better out than in) use your emotions to express yourselves, take the compliments. It's easy for me to say, I know that, you have to act. Being introverted can cause much more pain. I cannot tell up what to do, I can tell you how I deal with it. Watch a comedy, find the good things in life always remember their will AlWAYS be someone, somewhere worse than you, that's a fact. Do not be to proud or scared to ask doctor/family/friends for help, we all need help at 1 time or another in our life's, it take a lot of courage to ask, professionals will NOT judge you. X
@fadingfatality oh ok. People will come and go in your life, that's life, we grow apart sometimes, it's not personal, it's just the way it is sometimes. At times, things happen for a reason, we don't always know/understand it at the time......maybe better friends are waiting for you......time will tell. You seem like a smart soul, from your writings.....don't do anything silly, will you......keep writing, you have a great gift and inspire others, you may not know you do, but you are. ;-) x
Anna, I follow you on instagram as well so I know you're a beautiful person who loves to help others. Why not continue doing that after school? Join the peace corps or just go somewhere to help anyone else you can find. Or keep writing. Submit some to publishers. You have a purpose here we all do. You just haven't found tours yet and that's okay. You will go far. Mark my words Anna. You will be somewhere you love someday. I'm sure.
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