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Self Aware In Misery

smellyfingers
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Well I'm a miserable old git
Life gets me down and I just can't handle it
Pressure, pain, stress and emotions
Lock me in a darkened room with no commotion

I'm locked up inside my mind
Seeking nothing leading blind
Don't tell me I'm doing fine
You're out of luck and I have no time

Creating something out of nothingness
A mirage appears in the darkness
A morbid fascination from unhappiness
Fireworks light up the sky to reveal more fakeness

The revelation of the big bang creation theory
A judge rules with confusion in laws from an evolution story
An educated man brainwashed by religion feels poorly
Healing the weak with distinction given by an apparition from his history

Wake up from this nightmarish dream
Self aware of your muted screams
Re-born and baptised in a polluted stream
Darwin, Newton and Hawkins directed Spielberg in a futuristic Shakespearean Hollywood scene

#existential-crisis #general #mental-health #philosophical-poetry
smellyfingers

@smellyfingers

Asking lots of questions and thinking through the ones that are unanswered!! Kik: smellyfingers soundcloud: www.soundcloud.com/smellyfingers

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Comments & Feedback (14)

naaviie
naaviie
Aug 30, 2012 at 9:32 AM

Well, that's depressing. πŸ˜” are you ok? πŸ’š

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 9:42 AM

@naaviie yeah in know babe, just expressing meself and having one of them days 😘

leelee101
leelee101
Aug 30, 2012 at 9:44 AM

Ooo mate seems to be one of those days. 😒 Here have some β˜• it's the British way! πŸ˜‰

Irrational_Kimmi
Irrational_Kimmi
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:20 AM

@smellyfingers great piece, if a little depressing! 😘 But deep too 😁

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:25 AM

@leelee101 must be the weather mate! Thanks I needed that coffee β˜ΊπŸ‘

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:27 AM

@Irrational_Kimmi thanks babe and apparently we all suffer a form of depression at some point in our lives 😘

Irrational_Kimmi
Irrational_Kimmi
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:28 AM

@smellyfingers some of us suffer a period of life in our depression 😝😏

naaviie
naaviie
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:31 AM

Aw well - ups and downs - hug? πŸ’šπŸ’š

leelee101
leelee101
Aug 30, 2012 at 10:34 AM

@smellyfingers you are welcome sir πŸ‘πŸ˜‰

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 11:09 AM

@Irrational_Kimmi indeed and it's hard to be positive in a negative world, religion gives hope but I hope I have enough faith in myself and I believe religion is bollocks!! Pmsl 😍😘

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 11:12 AM

@naaviie yep Ying and yang, light and dark, can't have one without the other!! Mmmm hugz can lead onto other things if you allow it! 😜😘

naaviie
naaviie
Aug 30, 2012 at 12:34 PM

Ooo cheeky πŸ˜œπŸ˜˜πŸ’šβœ¨

sjw
sjw
Aug 30, 2012 at 3:15 PM

Very deep! but then what's new πŸ˜‚ big hugs babe 😘x

smellyfingers
smellyfingers
Aug 30, 2012 at 4:37 PM

@sjw thank you babe but I don't always go deep.....do I? Lol 😘

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