She wakes with the familiar pain
In her body
In her heart
Why did she let him down again?
He said she needs to
Make a start
She must
SHE MUST
Try harder
To make him feel secure
It's HER fault he
lost his temper
He says if only she
Loved him more
She must not
MUST NOT
Make him jealous
But she really didn't know
That he would lose control
Just because she said
Hello
To his best friend as he
Greeted her
She thought that was
Only polite?
I'm a bad person
I'm a BAD PERSON
For spoiling another night
He says she must
MAKE CHANGES
That she really does not
need her friends
You've got me
He says
YOU'VE GOT ME
And only on him
Must she depend
He says her family
Interfere
He DOES NOT
Want them around
Once or twice a year
Maybe, so long as they're
In the background
He says she must make
more effort, make
MORE EFFORT
To keep herself in trim
Lose some weight
Change her hair
To prove herself
To him
She forced him away
You see
YOU SEE
Into the arms of another
He says she really
needs to work on
being a better lover
A shadow of her
Former self
Stripped bare from
All his lies
Not sure of when she
Lost herself
Each day part
Of her dies
Devoid of hope, still
Craving his love
She took her own advice
Walked into dark water..
Weights carried her down-
The ultimate sacrifice.
The note wrapped and written
So perfectly, the strength she found somehow
To write the words, to have
the final say
'Do you love me now?'
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Fly10 Leigh 2012
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