Tears?

Is it right to cry for being hurt, when you brought the hurt on yourself? Is it right to pine after the only one with the power to break you, which they use.. Every. Single. Day.
You see his arms wrap around her waist, the laughter lighting up both of their faces, and you feel like an extra. Abandoned, alone.. Always. Or so it seems.
Listening to all the love songs, wondering if that'll ever happen to you.. Listening to the sad songs, able to relate..
"Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay a while.." (Maroon 5- She Will Be Loved)
Tears in your eyes as you try to block out all their harsh words, and the effort of keeping your serene, happy mask on. It gets too much. You break down. Run to your room, jump onto the bed and cry your eyes out. Then you plaster on your happy face and go back to the act.. But when can you stop? You've chosen to pretend you're happy, but how long until you don't have to pretend any more?
Will it ever end?
Will you be like this until life has ended for you?
Or is there a way to break the spell of hurt?
Does anyone know?
Broken hearts can be mended in time.. But, combined with a hurt, abused, broken mind.. Can a person get through all that? At the moment, the outlook is bleak. Maybe something will change. Maybe I'll never have to look at their 'love' again. Maybe I'll find my own. Maybe the hurt will stop.
I only hope I've never made anyone feel like this. Nobody deserves it.