Late at night im sitting here crying.
Lonely and cold inside im slowly dying.
Confused and hurting with no outlet.
Living my life with lots of regret.
Asuming happiness will never be found.
I feel id be better in a box underground.
Been let down by family and friends.
This is where the cruelty ends.
I lay in my bed and I start to wonder.
What would it be like to be 6 ft under?
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Comments & Feedback (28)
@ipuss We are all here for you and each other π What happened to the girl who was happy at having top post for the day and week, yesterday πΉπΉπΉ
@TheViolator Same as usual. She got her hopes up for somthing maybe better. Left stood waiting like shes nothing. π Seriously low and want to be near somone.... As usual im in bed wondering what went so bloody wrong. People say Ive got my entire life a head of me.. Im 22 and im working 2 jobs 7 days a week. No fun. 3 am bed, 6 am start. I have no money to do anything with. Im paying my bills and my parents... I have no one shred of happinss or hope to look forward to. The last time I went out. Other than walking my dog or going to work was over a year ago. Every one is like oh your time will come... Im supporting my family. ARGH Theres NOTHING for me.
@TheViolator @MrAlex @Weirdwolf As per usual the only people who care or can see im in pain is only reacable through this damned screen...
@iPuss Anything I say will possibly make you feel worse, but if you need to talk I'm here. You really are great.π And I have enjoyed getting to know you over the past few days. I know it's hard to see the light when you've been in the dark so long, but if you can even try to grab any happiness you should. That will lead to more. You have a great potential with writing, you should try letting out how you feel in your poetry. But that is up to you of course. I hope you feel better soon.xx
@iPuss We're all here for you, let's is Opusseers be your pillars for as long as you need my love π
@Stablish Like every one else you come up with positive feed back. I have no confidence its been stripped to bare bone by my boss. I was dragged away from friends aged 12. Shoved into a welsh school where I was treated so poorly for being english. I had the WORST set of 'friends' I was bullied like noones buisness. Now i get that exact same worthless feeling every time i turn up for work. When ive reached out for happiness i get let down. Ive just been unlucky that way. Nothing any one can say will make this better. Im not the type to give up easy. Ive been fighting battles for years. Trying to keep myself happy. Its gotten to a point where its just not happening. I never left school with friends so i still dont have any. Two jobs totaling about 55 hours a week + 15 hours travel a week leaves me with no time to socialise. Too shy to socialise alone. Theres just a shit tone of stuff you dont see. Only somone whoes going through this could understand.
@iPuss my heart bleeds for you :'( but even though you don't see anyone from opuss, let it be some comfort to you that everyone that follows you here is truly your friend and shall be by your side
@iPuss Thats why I didn't want to say anything, even though that would have hurt just the same. I'm sorry and I don't know what else to say apart from it pains me to hear you this way.π₯ I wish you all the best, I just want to help, I hope you understand. And your right I will not understand what your going through, know one else ever will because your the only you there is. And your a very special person.x
@minni92 In someways yes its a comfort. But in others... Ive spent the last 8 years behind a screen using that as comfort on a different site. It come to a point where that just isnt enough. I love all of my friends on here they are so great. But lifes such a shame that i only ever get to make friends online. Everyones kind loving words dont go un noticed and i apprciate them so much x
@minni92 In someways yes its a comfort. But in others... Ive spent the last 8 years behind a screen using that as comfort on a different site. It come to a point where that just isnt enough. I love all of my friends on here they are so great. But lifes such a shame that i only ever get to make friends online. Everyones kind loving words dont go un noticed and i apprciate them so much x
@iPuss well I think you are amazing and a true inspiration. To support your family and work 2 jobs and all the hours shows true grit and determination. Life can be a right **** sometimes but we all just have to keep going and hopefully something will change/happen for the good. Keep your chin up babe I know it's hard but as others have said we is here if you need us and it's awesome you can share your feelings. Much love xxxx
@iPuss listen to 'em hun. They're not just idle words. Even though few of us even know what the others even look like, and even though it's all through the screen of a pad/phone, it's a real community. And you are part of it. You know where we all are hunny. Anytime. X
@TheViolator π Eye, ear nose and throat infection....brill. Nice to see your thinking of me though.
I just read through the comments and I can honestly say that I feel the same sometimes, I have disorders so I'm kind of mentally unstable, if you ever want to talk, I'll be here, I promise! ;(
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