Hey. my name is Jamie:) I'm a 15 year old girl and last year I had an eating disorder. For years I had been really insecure. I had often had short periods of time where I wouldn't eat much but I was someone who enjoyed food a lot. Cookies, chocolate, Ice cream, cake. I loved it all and realistically, I probably ate more than the average girl. But then last year it started getting a bit more serious. in September october, my insecurities morphed themselves into an absence of food. I think it happened so suddenly. I was losing weight. After a whole I realised I was really out of control. Anyways, it's a long story, and that's why I'm gonna tell you on here. Im going to make this account all about my story. Also, quite an important piece of information is that I got found out. My mother is nosy. She found out, whilst snooping, and for that I will never fully forgive her. But anyways, this is too big of a story to explain now. So please read on, and pass no judgement, for I am here to give knowledge, recieve support and show others that it's a scary place to be.
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I struggled with an eating disorder last year, it felt like it was for infinity. that it would never stop. I now eat normally but that was still my life for a while, and I want to share all about it on this opuss
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I'll elaborate more when I get to that bit but basically she read my journals. It sickens me to think about how much she read. It honestly makes me nauseated. Because of that, I threw out every journal I had ever written:/ all those memories... gone. she's a snoop:'( @DazyQueen
@infinity_ Sorry bout that. πͺ well I'm sure she just wanted to know what ur thinking and stuff?? My mum used to do that. But you should never ever throw away your thoughts!! EVER!! I just hid my journal. Keep putting it new places. May sound hard. But most parents don't know many 'good' hiding places in the house ... Or 'outside' the house π
So, have you~ overcome it now, in a way? :) I can't wait to hear you're story, you sound like a very brave and strong person :) Ps. Jamie is a cool as name :D
@giggle may I ask what made you speechless? was it the actual opuss or the story about the journals?
@DazyQueen yes but I found it much to nosy): I didn't want to And I felt such a bitter and angry feeling towards her when I was throwing it out. I honestly thought it was a good spot... they were hidden in a drawer that contained woollen jumpers. considering it was summer when she found them, I have no idea what she was doing in that drawer >:[
@giggle yes I have overcome it, but i think it was because something that mattered more to me than life was going to be taken away from me if I didn't get better. unfortunately thy didnt know that they were forcing me to get better. forcing never totally works:'( bck to your question haha, yes I think I have recovered:/ but all in time, my dear, I will explain much better:)
@GroundB well no treatment. But I was told that I would get put off my sport if I didn't get better. I think I realised that the one thing that meant more to me than being skinny was my sport. it had kept me alive. I made an effort. I have to say it was so hard though, treatment might have made it slightly easier, but my mum never acknowledged that I had an eating disorder. just forced me to eat. i shall explain morein time :)
I've gotta say, that I'm only doing this becasue I need to eat if I want to keep my beloved sport. if I suddenly lost a leg, and couldn't do sport I would go back to the way I was.
@Tippette strong? I appreciate that but I'm not strong. I'm just not! I seem like a normal girl. I don't seem strong I'm not strong. But I don't seem broken either and thats when what seems to be is deceptive
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