Move On.

sammielee46 • 469 followers

A knot I can't get rid of,
Tears I'm yet to shed,
This feeling hanging over me,
Insecurity in my head,

I just can't get rid of this feeling,
I don't know how to describe,
The feeling of living on a knives edge,
Feeling numb and far from alive,

If I slip I'm going to get hurt,
I've always been stronger than this,
Self preservation always kicks in,
Not today as I spiral to the abyss.

Negative thoughts take the forefront,
Positivity shoved to the back,
I try so hard to please but,
My names always tainted in black,

Im never going to be good enough,
I try to be the best I can be,
I'm struggling to believe in myself,
Look to the mirror there's nothing good I see,

I wish I could believe in myself,
And at one point in time I had,
But now I see nothing special,
I see a face of loathing and sad,

I once was a talented person,
Would sing and dance and act,
Perform shows in the theatre,
But now I've lost it and can't turn back,

I miss that part that I have lost,
My confidence in myself,
Now I'm left with nothing more than,
The photos on my shelf,

I need to come to terms,
With the fact that person is gone,
For I am no longer that person,
I need to man up and move on.

#artistic-journey #general #identity-loss #mental-health #personal-struggle #self-doubt

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sarahgamal

Dec 17, 2012 at 5:28 PM

Yes Sammie. And forget older pictures and discover the new you .❤😘

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 5:36 PM

@sarahgamal thanks honey, got a lot of soul searching to do :) but ill get there eventually :) hugs for the rp :) x

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 5:37 PM

@HeatherAnne thanks for the rp honey :) x

leelee101

Dec 17, 2012 at 5:40 PM

Aw come on kid you're better than that. 😢 Big up yourself Sam, we're always here you know that hunny 👍😘😘😘

smellyfingers

Dec 17, 2012 at 5:56 PM

Just relax and be yourself hun, sod what others think or what you think they may think of you. Confidence is key, we all take knocks, it's how we bounce back that matters, 2 fingers up to the world is a great start. If life was a book and our past are written chapters then write new chapters but better than before. X

sleepydragon

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:02 PM

Remember there is no one quite like you. You are really really special and have many precious gifts to share with the world. The world is definitely a better place for your presence, you just need to remember that. 🌟🌟Bless you and sending love.🌟✨🌟✨

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:06 PM

@leelee101 I have nothing to big up at this point in time but I'm working on it. :) thanks honey and huge thanks for the repost :)

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:07 PM

@smellyfingers thanks honey appreciate that :)

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:07 PM

@sleepydragon aw thank you honey, appreciate that! And huge thanks for reposting honey :)

gazplend

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:40 PM

@sammielee46 you don't need to man up Sam,you just need to be yourself and believe in yourself and don't listen to negative crap ❤😘

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 6:47 PM

@gazplend thank you babe, means a lot!! Hugs for the repost :) x

sammielee46

Dec 17, 2012 at 7:14 PM

@crowncottage thanks for reposting :) x

misslittleDHP

Dec 17, 2012 at 8:27 PM

Sometimes we lose sight of who we truly are, for whatever that reason maybe, you just have to rediscover yourself...there you'll find a more confident you...you'll also realise just how special you are and indeed always have been...once you get that lost self esteem and confidence back...there will be no stopping you lovely lady...I wish you well on your road to discovery ✨❤✨❤✨❤✨❤✨❤✨

leelee101

Dec 17, 2012 at 8:44 PM

@sammielee46 you're joking of course. You have YOU, and from what little I know of you personally Sam, that's plenty to be getting on with. I'll tell you what, here's a trade. 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪 hugs for as long as you need 'em. Only cost you a smile hun... 👍❤🌹