Bleeding

Fly10 • 425 followers

You say you want to know the real me?
I hope you're certain and clear
As I think you'll find these confessions
Are not what you want to hear....

You keep pushing me
for an answer-
Your insecurity
spreads like cancer
And deafened to
the words I've spoken
You keep 'fixing' what
was never broken..

Are you understanding this?
I don't mean to cause you hurt
But you've asked me for the truth
And now I'm dishing the dirt...

I traded joy for
Sin and pleasure
Destroyed more than
you could ever measure
When you begged me
crushed and kneeling?
All I cared for was
my own healing...

Immersed myself in
darker dealings-
I lost touch with
all my feelings
Led a life of
self deceiving
Sickened by my
constant thieving..

Broke the will of
all around me-
Pawned my mind and
body madly
When all is said and
you are leaving,
I'll pay the price for
selfish grieving...

So will you walk away?
Now you know it all
I've been brutal in my honesty
Lost grace and took the fall
I squandered
all the good times-
Borrowed more
than I could sell
It's not that I don't love you
I just can't stand myself....

Tethered to the
Chains of sorrow
I pinned my hopes
on a new tomorrow
I don't know where
this path is leading
But my heart is dead
And my soul is bleeding.

#emotional-confession #general #inner-darkness #personal-trauma #self-destruction

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nikujagagirl

Jul 6, 2012 at 2:40 AM

This is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Brilliant!

natalee

Jul 6, 2012 at 2:54 AM

Beautiful 😊💙

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:05 AM

@nikujagagirl Thank you lady😊Appreciate your comment😘

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:05 AM

@natalee Thank you-glad you liked 😌😘

nikujagagirl

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:31 AM

@Fly10 You're welcome! I love your work!

leelee101

Jul 6, 2012 at 5:45 AM

Wow Leigh what a write. Again sounds like a searingly honest piece. Great write hun 👏👍😘❤

smellyfingers

Jul 6, 2012 at 9:28 AM

Wow!! Sounds like me, in a way, at times 😔😍😘

misslittleDHP

Jul 6, 2012 at 9:32 AM

Wow...a truly strong, emotionally charged write...brilliantly executed 😍😍😘😘

TheCodsPollocks

Jul 6, 2012 at 9:34 AM

Amazing! I love the way you use the English language. I think this is plenty much too good enough! 👏👏

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 11:24 AM

@leelee101 Thank you Lee. And yes, parts of it flowed very easily, as reflected not only me, but others who've been in my life in the past. Appreciate your comment 😌😘

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 11:25 AM

@smellyfingers Yep, I'm in there too😔 Along with others who've crashed through my life & heart in the past. Thanks for comment 😌x

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 11:27 AM

@misslittleDHP I'm glad that came across as I was pretty charged when I wrote it...Thanks for comment lovely 😘😌

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 11:27 AM

@TheCodsPollocks That's a lovely compliment. Thank you😊😊😘

merlin1038

Jul 6, 2012 at 2:02 PM

Powerful like the lady methinks?

ckahn

Jul 6, 2012 at 2:09 PM

This is brilliant! So well written and powerful. ✨👏👏👏✨

sjw

Jul 6, 2012 at 2:25 PM

Awesome babe, I love the way you use words 👏👏👏💞💞💞😽

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:32 PM

@merlin1038 Don't know about powerful....but maybe strong features somewhere😌 Good job with the week I'm having!😖 😘

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:34 PM

@ckahn I think this spewing of words & mixed emotions, reflects how I'm feeling this week a little😔 Thanks for your lovely comment-I'm glad you liked this piece 😌😘

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 3:34 PM

@sjw Aww thanks lady-comment means a lot 😊😘

Nom

Jul 6, 2012 at 6:22 PM

I love the change in rhythm and tempo in this, it really draws out the emotions. Love the line 'tethered to chains of sorrow', very evocative, a beautiful piece despite the sadness.

Fly10

Jul 6, 2012 at 6:47 PM

@Nom I was feeling a combination of anger & sadness when I wrote it, & so I hope that came through. I wasn't sure either whether the change in tempo throughout would work...but I like it😊 Thanks for your comment-always valued & appreciated 😌😘

Nom

Jul 6, 2012 at 9:20 PM

@Fly10 that definitely came through. The change in tempo worked as it made the longer slower stanzas appear more reflective, whilst the anger came through on the faster snappier stanzas. Really great write!