I Am No More

For those who still care,
I'm not worth it.
All I do is have my chin down
But pretend I don't see everyone notice.
My death here is done
I am no more no more
Lie down on fate's lap,
Hoping my poems will cure.
If again another like me comes in
I hope he or she can feel better
That even if I am no more
My heart is with him or her forever.

My downfall was that I looked to be great
Not to one but for everyone.
And wanted to be the best and the one most respected
Most loved by all, should a judgement ever call.
Greedy for helping
I am now undone,
So if you, who feel this , read this
Understand that it is of no use to run.

Keep hurting every day and don't even hope for some fun.
Just keep living with a silent dream,
And when too much is too much
And your head wants to explode
Give up your fight,
Lay down your gun.

@iPuss , I'm not sorry for this, but I hope you can rip apart your coloured glass and witness the time as I did...and I say this still hoping, from wherever the road might take me.

@Stablish , you are an amazing person. Don't change for things other than you or to please anything or anyone else. Change to forgive your secret sins, which someday will come clean. Remember your debts, relive the moments when you just knew that that is how you must be.

@Aleisha , you made many mistakes and so do we. You will still be amazing someday and so will she.

@Ell , I'm gonna now give you your behind the scenes and inside information to change it all. What I should have done, I am leaving to you...and Paul if he can ever figure out his fake side. Wait for my signs love.

@Ashhkat , I love you sis, and will miss you more than ever. Please be okay, because finally you will be the miracle.

For all Opuss and the world , I am no more. I thank you, those who we there and I promise all of you who I owe, that I will repay my debts. I hope even from here that my poetry will move and show light on those who haven't seen it yet. And that someday people will read my poems and articles and think of the meaning underlying which defines almost everything.

P.S. I thank my sister for posting this message when I have passed (hard enough for her) which I wrote on July 9th, 2012.
And Stablish, remember what I had asked of you...if I were to no more live. Keep Opuss magical with what ideas you have or sometimes which I may have had.
Ell, please be fine, I'm still there. Don't leave this world to make it better, the world needs you. I love you ell, just be strong and carry on. When you need me, you still have me..and my poetry.

To @Seamonster , you have, with Opuss, made a realm where things unimaginable can happen. Where wars can be fought and everyone is something filled with magic. As my last wish I ask you, please just keep it that way. Don't let this go and become like all those networks there. More users aren't what you need, it is a world filled with the Opussians you already have and a reality where every one of every Opussian's story is brought out and made into Opuss's strength. What is possible, is making Opuss the one place the world looks up to...as a legend.