I found out today
That my father has more to my past
I was only 10 months old
When he abandoned us

My oldest sister was 11
She hated him for breaking her trust
My other was 5 or 6
And she had a real fuss

He didn't call for weeks
My oldest overly happy
For him out of her life
While the other couldn't cope without him in her life

My oldest grew up
And learned to love
While my other,
Was given push to shove

My other sister,
Marylin her first name
Changed everything about her
Since my fathers little game

Joee, we call her
Is now approaching 20
And finally learned how to love
After being heartbroken plenty

When my father would call
Say he was coming to see us
She'd get ready an hour before
Then wait until he came back to regain her trust

But he never came
Leaving her shattered
She was so young
And was life-long battered

I feel for her now
After her dog being put down
And our grandfather dying
I'd have a hard time not drowning

She once turned to drugs
Right behind her church
No one gave a care
She "always lurched"

At one point, she didn't talk to anyone
None of her family or friends
We all thought
This might be where her road ends

But she turned back around
After being so heartbroken
So beat with
Pent up emotion

Shes been through a hell of a lot
Given up plenty too
Now she regrets
Not sticking to it like us few

But I believe her story
More than most
Because now I'm growing up the same way
Except for instead of my father, it's my moms post

I understand where she came from now
Why she was so distant
It now makes me strive
To be different

I'll go to college
Unlike either of my sisters
Actually get a degree
So I can do what I love with all the perks

I admire them both
For keeping on going
Even when our father
Had abandoned us, not at all loving

My mother even paid him once
Just to take us the park
He was so resistent
Never wanting to go on this embark

I don't remember
But everyone else does
I'll keep going for you all
Because you inspire so darn much.

<3